Right now, I need a drink. No it is not that I WANT one, I NEED a drink.
When I have issues or problems, I resolve them with alcohol. Right now, I am so annoyed, pissed, fired up, whatever you want to say, that I really NEED a drink to calm myself down.
I'm so pissed at the bullshit I have to put up with when Godfrey is gone. I'm so tired of being treated like the hired help, but I still have to pay rent. I'm tired of dealing with asshole roommates who can't do something simple for me.
Tonight is a night where I really should not be consuming alcohol. I'm mad, and I want to forget what is going on and just relax. But my first gut reaction is "I need a beer".
Godfrey isn't here to make it better. I don't speak to the asshole roomies anymore because it does me no good. Its just me and the dog.
However, I have decided that instead of picking up the bottle to make me forget I have a problem, I am going to do what normal people do and just vent. However, since there is no one here to talk to but the dog, and she just sleeps, I will vent through my blog.
Tomorrow night, I hope I can do more blog venting and not drinking.