Monday, November 14, 2011

Another Weekend .....

Another weekend where I attempted to get enough rest to make me feel better. Thursday was just a terrible day. I could barely do anything with my hands at all. The pain in my hands and arms was just insane. The doctor that I have now looks at me like I am making up things to try to get drugs.

I feel like I did get enough rest over the weekend. My hands are still bothering me a little, but it is much better if I am blogging.

Have you ever wanted the world to just slow down so you can catch your breath?
That is how I feel all the time. There is so much going on, I never ever get done. I would just like to be able to come home after work have dinner and then just do one thing around the house. Instead what happens is 5 days a week, we are completely swamped with one thing or another after work and I never have time to do household stuff.
When I finally do get a duty day or work late day to do stuff around the house, I have so much to do, I over work myself and I wake up in serious pain.
There has to be a happy medium somewhere.
Am I the only Navy Wife who desperately wants her man to go out to see for 2 weeks just so she can clean house?

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Retail Rant ...

I realize that retailers want to capture as much information as possible on their customer base. But honestly, why do you have to play 20 questions with me so that I can buy a soda?

Everytime I go to Lane Bryant,  (Yes they sell the size I wear, and they have AWESOME underwear), I must answer at least 3 questions before they can even get the scan gun out to start my transaction. I must give them my phone number, email address, and zip code at least. I must tell them if they can send text messages to the phone number on file and emails to the email address on file. I have to answer questions about some rewards program and several other things that I can't remember.

When I tell them I can't remember the phone number they have, they want to enter my life story all over into the system.
REALLY???? Why do you need my email address for me to buy underwear?
Are you going to email me in 6 months and remind me my bras are 6 months old and warn out and I need to buy new ones? No.

Today was really the height of retail nosiness.
I was buying a Diet Coke and a Hershey Bar.
KMart had to ask me abou the rewards club, my phone number, my zip code and then try to get me to apply for a credit card.
REALLY? I was buying a diet coke and candy bar!

I understand that retailers want to capture information but I really should not have to provide you with 2 forms of ID, my Twitter Account and 3 references in order to buy a Diet Coke.

Crazy Pain Day ...

Hard to do anything when you hands are hurting this bad ....

Monday, November 7, 2011

Weird Pain ....

Of all the places on my body to hurt, Why my tongue???

My tongue is swollen and has a huge sore spot on the side. It makes it hard to eat, swallow and drink.

Thank you Lupus!

Thursday, November 3, 2011


So I realized that I have never officially posted on my blog that the doctors have diagnossed me with Lupus in addition to my Rheumatoid Arthritis.

My new Rheumatologist has told me that it may just be Lupus, and not RA. But I wont really find out for a couple more weeks.

Having RA has been bad enough, but then when I find out I have tested positive and have Lupus it was a rude awakening.

RA will just disfigure me and my life hard to live. Lupus will kill me. It will cause damage to my organs and lead me to a slow, painful death.

Needless to say, hearing Lupus, was not something I wanted to hear. Although, it was nice to finally get some validation in that all of the crazy things going on with my body are all caused by one thing.

Facial Rashes - For the past 2 years I have been getting these weird red rashes on my face. They usually dont spread all the way across my face like typically with lupus. It is normally just on one side, but my nose is always red and very "peeling". The edges all look like I am subburnt and that my skin is peeling but it is not that.

Blue Skin - Randomly I will get the blue finger tips. Sometimes it goes further into my hands but normally it is just blue at the ends. It almost looks like I've got a bruise at the end of my fingers.

Brown marks - I get these random brown marks all over my body. They normally aren't bruises per se, but they are just brown, like I am overly tan in one weird shaped spot on my arm or leg.

Headaches - Headaches are very commong with lupus. Everyone knows I am forever having a headache.

Joint Pain, Swelling, Disfigurement and Discomfort - Similiar to RA, the swelling and stiffness is hard to deal with sometimes.

Tiredness and Brain Fog - I stay constantly tired like I can't move. I'm tired, exchausted even and I want to sleep, but sometimes I can't.
The brain fog is really hard for me sometimes because I just can't think of things and I can't remember where I need to be or what I am doing.

Annoyed ....


How do you maintain your professionalism but tell someone you work with that they are the noisest person ever put on God's earth and if they speak one more word you are going to gut them like a fish?

Not every conversation is about you. Not every project should include you.

NO, you do not know everything.  NO, People do not like you.

You should stop being an ass and handle your business.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


If you did not get an invitation ... You are not invited ... Simple as that.

Why don't people understand that?