Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Such Is Life

I haven't been updating much because I really feel like I haven't had anything to update about. 
My life got increasingly better as I was working out and changing the way that I was eating. However, 6 weeks into it, I have been struck with ridiculous headache pain. It has been constant and chronic. 
I haven't been able to do anything that I would normally do. I haven't been able to exercise, bend forward, be in the extreme heat or cold. I haven't been able to do much of anything at all without screaming headache pain. 
I have seen my regular doctor, the neurologist and I am working on some other specialists, just waiting for insurance to approve it. 
Unfortunately, I have an HMO that approves very little, so the fact that my brain feels like it is going to explode 24/7 is not that big of a deal to them. I worry I may have something that is causing permanent damage, but my insurance doesn't care. 

On top of the fact that my brain is exploding, it has been a trying time for my sailor and I. He is under a large amount of stress, his work is crazy. So needless to say, he is not in the best mood all of the time. I try to just realize that it is not that he is mad at me, but just deal with it the best that I can. 
We are at a weird point in our relationship. We have been together for over 4 yrs, but we are not at the point where we are talking about marriage or planning a wedding. I think we are at a point to where we need to decide if that is actually what we want or not. 
The problem is, that with my head non stop hurting and his job totally stressing him out, we are not remotely in a normal situation. We are not just living our regular life. Things are way different. 
I hope that here pretty soon the doctors can get to the bottom of what is causing my head pain and his craziness will slow down for a couple months. 
Hopefully then we can get back to what we need to talk about. 
For now, we are both just sort of treading water.